Standstill

Trying to Get the Cart Back Behind the Horse

So what I put in the kitchen sink and base cabinet before I replaced the tile so it's not permanent? At least I have a fully functioning kitchen now. I kind of had to do things backward to know what I need to do to go forward.

I have tackled a lot of projects in this condo since buying it almost 2 years ago and since sort of taking all the planning and the work on myself (with lots of help) last June.

But man! There are so many more projects to be done.

I'm at a standstill because they are big expensive projects that I'm not sure I can or want to do myself. The biggest of these is the need to replace the tile and carpet throughout my home. I have to do this downstairs before my counter tops can be attached to the floor and walls and before I can add permanent counter tops. Probably $5,000 each floor. I'm sure I can save a lot if I take the tile and carpet out myself. All things that need to be decided and saved for.
And yet, I'm decorating some because ya know that makes sense. I bought a lamp and throw pillows and am soon going to hang a mirror over the couch - as soon as I scrape the paint I got on the glass and try to smooth out some of my poor spray painting.

I have started to build a coffee table - next post!
In the middle of this and two jobs, asthma is rearing its ugly head, and it's March Madness Baby! Go Cats!

And for the heck of it and because I'm all over the place in this post (I'm going to blame the Prednisone for my ADD behavior here but it might just be me), here's a video and great remake a friend sent me the other day. 

Disturbed "The Sound of Silence"

Things I Know Among Uncertainties

Goodness

"The human heart yearns for the beautiful in all ranks of life" - Harriet Beecher Stowe

So many things in life - in my life - are uncertain.

I'm completely OK with that - I don't need everything mapped out. And thank goodness for that since it never has been! I'm hopeful about a happy future. I'm happy now - why wouldn't I be happy later? What later will look like I have no idea. I hope I can get to all the things I want to. I hope there's love and companionship in a romantic sense but I know there will be with friends and family.

For now, what I know for certain includes the following:

• There will always be another project to tackle in my condo
• Running - it's part of me even when I can only think about it. 2 slow, lung hurting miles this morning 
• Asthma stinks
• Hockey - finally got back on the ice last Sunday
• Fishing - dropped a line in for the first time in months and it felt great
• Everything is better after yoga even when it was already good
• I have the most amazing friends - all over the country and the world - AND on this lovely place I call home
• My family will always love me
• The sun WILL come out - figuratively and literally
• Tourist season won't last forever (grocery shopping with a glass of wine eases the pain of season)
• I can always complain or marvel at my first-world problems and I guess aren't I lucky to have them to complain about?
• Everyone who enters my life - even briefly - is there for a reason

This post was supposed to be about my latest project below but I got sidetracked.

No major construction or plumbing lately. Lots of straightening, organizing, sorting and purging. 

Tonight - after Nacho Tuesday at the pier - no B, no Jess and Chris had to head home to get ready for the next day's fishing tournament - of which I was the volunteer leader -  I came home wondering what I should have for dinner. I saw the two teak towel bars that had arrived last week and decided I would install them - cleverly attaching them to the temporary plywood counter tops. Not permanent fixtures - though I want to incorporate them later when I install the concrete counter tops - but good and helpful and lovely for now.

Good and helpful and lovely for now - I like this idea. It's like being present in the moment - every moment - and not thinking about what's ahead or behind. Yoga instructor Julia reminded we yogis to do this last night.